Nothing Tastes as good as thin feels!

Monday

I very nearly fucked up again, was going to buy a fab (99cals) a packet of tooty frooties (179cals) and a milky bar (69cals) I was at the check out and then Ana told me I didn't need it, I didn't need to put this shit into my body. So I put it down and just bought the milk for Rowan. I know I fucked up earlier but Ana is winning. I plan to just have water tomorrow so I am finishing off all my diet coke/coke zero tonight, plus it will keep my mind away from food.

I will be thin! Ana will let me achieve my dream.

I FUCKED UP!!!!!

I fucked up but its okay I can fix it! I'm not a failure because failures give up and I will not give up. I am going to go to the gym and burn everything off! And from not on I only drink water! Pure beautiful water! I WILL DO BETTER. I have to! I have to do better!

Look how perfect she is!

Update on yesterday

I nearly slipped! Had a couple of sips of hott chocolate before pouring it away, had some squash with some liquid laxitives, nearly had somechocolate but spat it out. AND I almost ate a biscuit but convinced myself not to. Phew. Sadly I probably totaled about 40/50cals instead of 13. However I will do better today!

Sunday

Day 1

Haven't eaten anything today and I don't plan to.

I have had 2 cans of coke zero and 2 cans of diet kick (about 13cals in total) I went to the gym and burnt 320cals and did 200 sit-ups might do some more before bed.

Mum thinks I've had toast, chocolate, half a pizza, couple of ginger bread men, 3 veggie sausages and mash potato. Probably totaling to over 2000cals! YUCK! Plus she thinks i'm about 8 stone when I'm closer to 7.

Seeing as I tend to eat when I've weighed myself i'm not going ot weigh myself till next monday, and I will probably wait until the evening to make sure I can't eat!

This is hopefully going ot be a food free week, haven't had one of them in a while.... And I'm sure I can be sucessful as long as a stay focused, stay strong and remind myself constantly that I am fat and that thin is beautiful.

Lets see how it goes.