Day 3

Managed 3 days with out food, have soo low energy levels though. Feels like someones sucking the life out of me. But its worth it when i see the numbers going down on the scales. Makes me smile everytime it happend. I dont want to be fat. Just a shame being thin takes so much effort.

(:

Well I managed to last the day, no food! Just diet coke. AND I weighed myself this morning 96lbs! 12 more lbs to go till I reach my goal. Not gunna be eating anything today, might try and make it to the gym. But I am so glad I am under 7 stone again.

It took me a month to put on 19lbs, so far its taken me 2 months to get 15 off. I'm never going to let myself gain that much again. Because its too hard to lose it. I want to be thin and STAY thin! Lol bit of a rambled post but basically I'm happy to be at 96lbs!!!!!!!!!!

Day 6

Well after 2 days of constantly messing up I am ready for some nice food free days. Haven't weighed myself in a while, probably weigh loads. I'm really fed up of making empty promises to myself. I mean how hard can it be to just not eat. As Rowan said 'wouldn't it be either to be annorexic then you wouldn't have to always clean the toilet...' So I won't throw up anymore, I'm fed up of looking into the bottom of a toilet. Its just such a fucking waste of my time. And it makes me look bloated and fat! I just wish I was thin!

GRRRRR!

Well today I threw up for the last time. I'm fed up with food, it tastes like shit and makes me feel shit. If I carry on this way my ribs will sink away into fat, I will reach my perfection.

Please helps me ana, I need you now more than ever. I don't want to be fat. I will never be fat!

Day 4

My stomach feel really weird, but I guess thats from lack of food. I feel a bit weak but not too bad. Just feel like being really lazy! As long as I'm thin nothing else matters!

Last post for today.

I think I may have over done it with the mints at jive, but i seriously needed the sugar cause I felt so week, Had a mini whoopsie, had a little hott chocolate then threw it away and nearly binged but decided to resist! Haha. Food is clever, always trying ot find new ways to trick me into eating it. But it won't win. Gunna have another go at just water tomorrow seeing as I don't have to do much so I cen just flop if I feel really weak! Gave in and weighed myself, 99lbs. Back to where I was last monday. Oh well these things happen. I'll do better tomorrow. I always try.

I have no energy

Well was planning to just stick to water today, but i feel soo weak that I've had 2 diet kicks (5cals each) and a coke zero (1cal) so not too bad I guess. Gunna end up having mints at jive :( but I guess I'll burn that off danicng so as long as I don't go over the top eveything should be okay! But we'll soon see.